I need to hear you say.....

Turns out i really dont need to hear it!!!! I really thought that i did but i was making it much more difficult on myself..... trying so hard when you weren't trying at all and all of this was your idea..... so here's your change.... i'm stepping aside and now its your turn to show some effort!!! hmmm...... i feel better now...... thanks!

School sucks

School.....

Well as everyone knows we start school in a little over a week! Its crazy!!! this summer has flew by like no other!!! It's weird..... I still remember jen. jay and i driving to Pizza hut the last day of school.... it seems like that was only yesterday! I guess at this point i'm not only anxious for it to start and then be over... haha... but also alot is hitting me right at this moment. Like after this year.... all of us will be going in different directions! Like Jen is planning on going to Springfeild..... Meg might be going there too.... not for sure and then Me to Pitt State..... Kinda scary if you really think about it!!! I guess that it's scaryt o me cuz i really do have a hard time letting people into my life and going to college empty handed, meaning no one to be with me every step of the way, is a little frightening! Not only is this school year the last year of basically our childhoods, but it also puts up tremendous obstacles between Ryan and I. With School and Work.... I'm afraid that the time we get together will be quite limited..... for example... I cheer on friday nights... wich will most likely mean i will have to work Saturday nights..... so no time for ryan! It just makes me a little nervous..... but wewill most definately make it through it.....an then theres another thing..... once school is out.... that means i go away to college... wich means i will be farther away from ryan, which yet again throughs a huge obstacle between us! Thats ok though.... our love is so strong... it will hold us together! Another thing that the upcomming school year has put in front of me is the want/ need to repair old friendships and/ or prove myself to certain people. I feel that hardly any one understands me and my actions.... which is understandable.... but this year I'm really gonna try to let down my guards and my, let's say, limitations... and just be a teenage girl. But i really am looking forward to hopefully repairing friendships, and if they can't be repaired let them see why i am how i am.... so maybe they will have a better understanding! Ok well i guess thats where i am in my life right now! So i will see you all at school next thursday!

 OH!!!! I got my senior pictures taken yesterday and i am SO excited to get my proofs!!!

I love you babe!

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